Yesterday

You probably haven't done anything wrong in most peoples eyes. You chose to ignore me for 30 hours, and maybe that's normal, I don't know.

You said you may be going out, so when I never heard from you I thought maybe something happened to you. But there was facebook activity the next morning, so I realised that wasn't it. Then what could it be, why would you just ignore me?
I was telling myself «I'm sure she's busy doing something important, like corresponding with lawyers or something of that sort», and I tried to hang on to that, but it didn't keep me from thinking...

The thoughts kept spinning... At one point I decided that I would break up with you if you hadn't made contact by midnight (your 11), although I knew I would never do that.
But then at midnight, I asked you whether you had a good reason for not replying. That hurt me, that I had to ask you.

To be busy is fine, to say that you'd like to be alone and have some quiet for a day or a few days is fine, to have a reason not to talk to me and not talk to me can also be fine. To not have a reason and still ignore me is not fine. It either demonstrates how little you know me feelings, or how little you care. That hurt me.

Sometimes... I feel like you could make more of an effort. It's nice when your person makes you feel wanted, special, cared for.

Something needs to change, that's for sure.